another true story...

*****All characters appearing in this story are taken from true life. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely intentional. If you can spot yourself amongst the characters, be assured that it is you  ****************

Once upon a time there lived a female Dove. Very pretty and equally intelligent. Her heart melted at seeing poverty around and yet she was very very shrewd .

She loved painting and laughing. While her friends burnt the midnight lamps to pass engineering exams , she passed the exams studying in the canteen along with her best friend and numerous plates of samosas.

As soon as she passed her exams , her parents got her married . A perfect match in every way . She cooked  rock hard idlies and he showered her with praises.

Their weekend was spent in shopping which was her favorite timepass.

Soon the strokes got them a sonny baby. After the initial few hiccups she settled down to the new routine.
But there was definitely something missing. Did she feel insecure because she was not earning  ?
"Darling you are already doing a lot . Why do you want to work now ? " Hubby asked surprised. But as always he let her have her way.

Soon she got a job !  Responsibilities kept on adding - at home and at work. Did she take anyone's help ? No ! Our Dove felt it would be a sign of weakness to ask for help. She was a strong female!

"We need a baby girl" one day Dove declared. "So be it " said darling hubby .

As her maternity leave came to an end , hubby dear once again offered "You can give up your job" .

 "No no I promised them I would be back after 4 months . So away I go next month"

Time passed by . With the added responsibility our Dove started getting up one hour earlier and went to sleep an hour later than her usual time.

But the responsibilities kept on adding as did her weight.  One day she got a shock as she looked into the mirror. Signs of ageing !!!! The damn expensive cream didn't erase the dark spots as it promised on television. She neither had the time nor the strength to sue them.

"If you want I can leave my work and take care of the house" Hubby dear offered.

"No No you earn more than me. You carry on . I think I will leave my job. Just give me some time to sort it out in my mind "

"I am a superwoman" she chanted 10 times everyday morning. And did it hep ? No it didn't. She gave up her evening walks to meet her deadlines. She didn't have time to hear her daughter sing "Chamak Chalo " .  She gave up her pedicures to complete the damn report . "Candle light dinner ?" she gave hubby such a dirty look that he actually felt guilty of proposing it . "Lets just grab a burger . I have a call in half an hour. "

The sensible hubby recognized the sign of depression behind the fake smile.  But what could the poor guy do ? And how long could the Dove's body take this kind of abuse. As she sat in front of the Psychiatrist she realized how wrong she was.  She thought equality meant going out and working. She knew the exact time of  each of her meetings , but didn't know her sons exam had started.

"Darling take a break from work for some time. If it doesn't work out go back. But at least give it a try. "  Dove nodded her head in agreement. Next day she went to her office and gave in her resignation. There was a notice period of two months .

From then on every time she fought with her hubby or shouted at her kids she thought "Few more days , then  life will be back on track" . She googled for dance class and meditation classes nearby. She did a lot of research on salsa and hip hop and finally decided on belly dancing classes . She was looking forward to her break. She got a new fruit juicer , sprout maker and a steamer.

Finally the day day arrived. She handed over her laptop and said good bye to everyone . As she handed over her Access card at the security she felt very happy and light. Finally she was going to live her life the way she wanted !

She came out of the huge gate . She looked back one last time. She took a step to cross the road. She did see the huge monster truck that was coming from the other side. Crash !!!!! Her white feathers along with her dreams were strewn all over the road... She slowly closed her eyes as the crowd gathered around her... A small tear dropped down from her lashes and got lost somewhere...

Moral/Lessons Learnt : 

• Don't wait until tomorrow to begin living. Start right now ! 
• If your superwoman outfit seems to have ripped /shrunk , just discard them for a designer outfit. 
• Its okay to ask for help. 

Take Care,

Man and wife ...F 55

"Honey I am back home !!! Here's a bottle of your favorite wine . Lets celebrate tonight! "
"Muahhh ...Darling I am soooo.... happy ...  See I prepared your favorite lasagna today! "
"Thank you Darling ..."
"I love you dear "
Next day 
"Chief here's the report from the lab. One glass of wine and lasagna on one plate was poisoned.  "


Take Care,

Dear me ...

Dear me

I know you would be gazing out of the window as you read this letter and thinking "What the hell is this ! " . And as you read the previous line you would have a faint smile on your lips . See how well I know you .

You love change . Yes I know you can't stick to anything for long.  But you must realize ever time you metamorphose into a new person , people around you might not realize that .  It might take them some time to get used to the new you . Don't get irritated, don't panic . These people love you. Give them some time to get used to the new you (which is very frequent ...sigh !)

Writing , dancing , Painting,  every time you move from one hobby to another people make fun of you claiming you cannot stick to one thing. But I know why you do this . Your desire is not to master anything , but to experience the new ! (But every time you move on to something new do you mind clearing away all the clutter you created by storing all the canvas , paints , threads etc etc )

I love the unpredictable you . You fought with everyone for a career . You didn't shy away from the politics at work. You fought headlong . You got what you deserved each time. And then just when everyone expected you to rise further in your career , you decided one fine day to take a break. For everyone it was a rash step . But I know you take decisions in minutes and never worry about the consequences . Sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy and follow your heart. I don't have to advise you on that right ? You are doing well (wink wink).


Life my dear, is one big masquerade party. People wear masks all the time . Every mask has a person behind it. Some people wear masks to hide their true self whereas others might wear it just to hide their vulnarablity . Its ok to wear the mask of courage when you might be shivering from inside, its ok to wear a mask of interest just to make your friend feel wanted , its ok to wear the mask of enthusiasm just to make the kids happy. But it is not ok to cheat someone wearing a mask of innocence . That is wrong  .
And if someone decideds to take off their mask in front of you , respect them , appreciate them. Embarace them with open arms ...

Coming on to the topic of motherhood . I know you are worried about being a good parent. There is no right or wrong when it comes to parenting. Sometimes you just have to go with your instincts. Just make sure you give your kids enough freedom so that they can think on their own . But keep a watch. They are young and can be easily influenced. Try to be a good parent first and then their best friend.

Another advise : Stop Pretending to be happy when you don't feel happy !
The more you push aside your feelings underneath your fake smile, the more the pressure builds inside
Open up and spill your heart out.
Don't try to suppress your emotions. Its ok to let everyone know now and then that you are not happy . You too need attention and care.


And how can I sign off without commenting on your ego !!! Your big inflated ego !!! Stop wiggling your nose now ! (smile! smile!) . Sometimes you just have to let go a few things . Forget and Forgive.
Everyone makes a mistake now and then (Don't try to look like a saint now ! This includes you as well !!) . Thats why we are given such a long life ...make mistakes , realize it , correct it or just acknowledge it and move on . Each mistake that we realize makes us a better human being. Just don't stop living ...

And yes be proud of yourself always ... Never feel bad about being just an ordinary person. All the perfect people move aside !!! Here comes our Ms ordinary :)

PS : One more tip : You don't have to be guilty of little insincerities towards others .Its all a part of the game called - Life !

You know I love you a lot with all your +ves and -ves and will always be there with you .

This post is part of the contest A letter to yourself.. on WriteUpCafe.com

Take Care,

Take me with you ...

carry me along with you

hopes dreams and rainbows

my wings are broken

Take Care,

I am lonely ...

I stand in the corner of the garden
Looking proud and tall
I have the whole world
at my feet
No way that I could fall

You kiss my tiny white flowers
Look at me with the longing eyes
I smile wide
And you smile back
To say 'I understand you darling'

Today I stand in the corner of the garden
Trying hard to catch your eye
You are busy on the phone
And I am bleeding
from my heart

My fragrance fill the air
to catch your attention
I look at you with longing eyes
Have I become
a part of your life
So much
That you forgot my existence ?


You notice my wilted flowers
You rush inside
to get a glass of water
The world news on the TV
catches your attention
and the glass of water
remains by your side


Today you water me
Smile at me
And ask me
what is wrong
Why am I not smiling back at you
The way I always do ?

Darling
Broken heart can be mended
But broken spirit
Can it be mended ?



Take Care,

Broken Trust...

He sat quietly and watched as she carefully applied the red lipstick. He watched her pucker her lips, pouting almost as she applied the make-up to them. She smiled at herself and turned back. "Darling I will be late today... Lots of work at office ! "  He just nodded his head.

She took one last look in the mirror, then threw her cell in her brown leather purse, grabbed her office tag off the dresser,  threw a kiss at him and headed for the stairs.   He could hear the front door shut. On an impulse he got up and decided to follow her.

He was careful to keep a significant distance between them. She stopped for a minute to adjust her sandals and then continued to walk towards the bus stop.  She reached the bus stop and pulled out her cell from her bag. Soon 335 B came . He expected her to get into the bus . That was the only bus which went up till her office gate. He was ready to dash into the bus from the hind door. He was surprised to see her still standing there . "What the hell !!! Why was she not taking her regular bus". Just then the next bus came and he saw her getting in. He quickly got inside as well . He was not sure where the bus went. "Last stop" he said handing over 100 Rs.

She got down after three stops . He followed maintaining a safe distance between them.
She walked for around fifteen minutes and then took a left turn. He couldn't see her anywhere as he reached the bend . His blood was boiling from inside. Liar , cheater , vamp ... he came up with numerous adjectives as his eyes searched for her.
He spotted her entering a dilapidated white building. : " Karunashraya - Abode of Peace" the board read. He felt silly standing there. He remembered she had told him few weeks back that their maid's mother was suffering from cancer. She probably though he would make fun of her if she told him the truth. What a woman ! She had a heart of gold ! He suddenly felt so small.

He turned back before she came out and found him. "I must remember to buy some candles and red roses on the way back" he thought , still feeling ashamed.

She came out after few minutes. She stretched as she looked at the sun and smiled. She took out her mobile,  clicked on the message tab and punched the reply "Darling thanks for saving my life today. Will meet you in half an hour"

Take Care,